Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Happy. Birthday.

Seriously, how is this girl six years old?

Ok, if you know me at all, you know I think my daughter is amazing.  I'm proud of her and blessed to be her mom and love her to the moon and back.

But can I be real with you and tell you that I've really been sad today?

Birthdays are hard.  There are a lot of "shoulds" and "supposed tos" on birthdays.  They are milestones that mark a vast difference between Emma in my world and the Emma that "would have been"

Of course, "would have beens" and "shoulds" are not helpful.

But that doesn't mean that my emotions are any less real.

And I've been sad.

I'll be fine, and the Bear will, too (despite the visit to our Pediatrician Who We Love today to get some medicine for a rash she's had for awhile ...).

We're going to declare Saturday our birthday celebration day and spend a lot of time doing things a Bear will love.

Hopefully then I'll post a more happy birthday post.

For today, I love her and I hope she's having a great day ... I am not, and that's okay.

1 comment:

tednsue said...

Did you feel it? That was a virtual hug Becky! Love ya