There's a fine line in blogging as well.
I was talking to my brother yesterday and he commented that I don't blog as often as I used to.
He said he missed my posts because he was really encouraged to hear me write about my walk with the Lord.
And I have to admit, I had, um, noticed that my posts haven't had the spiritual depth that they used to. So I took some time yesterday to reflect on that.
When I was pregnant and Emma was first born, it was a VERY difficult time in my life, but it was also a time of HUGE emotional and spiritual growth. My prayer life was vibrant, my time in the Word was like water to my soul. I would read a chapter ANYWHERE in the Bible and find that it brought me comfort or encouragement. And I blogged about it.
But then once life settled back into "new normal," I noticed something happening in my relationship with the Lord. I would read the Word and something would strike home with me and instead of pondering it and working to apply it to my own life, I would instantly think about how to blog about it.
And many have shared with me that some of those posts were a blessing to them, so I'm not saying that blogging about my daily devotionals was a bad thing.
But I started to realize that I had entered a season where the blogging about my walk with the Lord had, in a weird way, over-taken my actual walk.
So for the last couple of months, I haven't felt like I "had permission" from the Lord to blog about some of the things he was working on in me because I needed to let them rattle around in my own life for awhile.
And that was good.
But talking to my brother made me realize that perhaps I had fallen into yet another problem. My blogging had been holding me accountable to actually DOING those devotionals! And now ... well ... I'm not in the Word NEARLY as much as I used to be.
I'm NOT a pastor. I'm NOT a Bible scholar. I HAVEN'T read the whole book cover-to-cover.
But I think I might start occassionally reflecting about my Bible times out here again. It's as good a journal as any, right? :)
No worries. I won't stop posting pictures of cute kids:
Just might go back to throwing some Bible verses up here now and again and see what comes of it. Is that ok? :)
Here's one that struck me this week:
Phil 3:12 - Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ took hold of me.
I'm in a season right now where the adrenaline has worn off. When you're in the valley, it's easy to find spiritual growth, and on a mountain top it's easy to praise His name.
But right now I'm just sort of doing life. It's busy and hectic and fun and exhausting. Just life.
And the terrible temptation comes from the fact that if I look behind me, a season of great spiritual growth isn't so far back there that it's disappeared over the horizon. I COULD think back over the last year and sort of rest in the growth I've already had.
But I have NOT "already been made perfect"
And if I fail to "press on," if I fail to keep working at my faith, if I fail to keep growing, there's a sense in this verse that perhaps I'll miss some of "that for which Christ took hold of me"
There are more blessings to come. More growth to experience. More struggles for Christ to carry me through.
And if I just coast, I might miss some of it!