Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Charlie loves "his" Emma!
She's such a good sleeper! She lays in her bassinet in the kitchen while commotion is going on all around her. Charlie even today wanted to show baby Emma a treasure he had found ("Look, Baby Emma! Mommy's phone! Dis button right dere is a no-no!") while she was sleeping and she MIGHT have gotten a little bonk on her forehead, but she's so patient with Charlie's affections. She even fell asleep in his arms last night while we read a book together on the couch. Be still my heart.
And we must all recognize the psychology of Christmas presents: Mommy and Daddy only have a few available at a time to keep the fresh thrill of new toys lasting as long as possible.
At the moment his trains are set up in the living room (just try to walk across the floor with a baby in your arms, I dare you!) and Mr Potatoe Head is waiting patiently on the piano bench for Charlie to .... ummm ... select his wardrobe ...yeah. I think there's an arm coming out of the top of his head, and Charlie is wearing his glasses as often as possible because it makes Mommy laugh.
Meanwhile, Emma (the most easy-going baby EVER) hangs out happily in her swing and rolls her eyes at Mommy's attempts to provoke a smile.
Charlie has decided he likes yogurt now:
What? What's so funny?
And every time it snows, he gets to do a very important big boy job. Nothing beats shoveling with Daddy!
He's a big help...
And this one is sort of a "new mom of two kids" coping mechanism ...
SOMEONE (not me, possibly my mom :)) taught Charlie that when it's cold outside you can breathe on a window and draw pictures in the condensation from your breath. Charlie has discovered that it's much more fun to draw pictures in the slobber that hits the window when you "accidentally" stick your tongue out when you breathe on the sliding glass door. This is surprisingly fine with Mommy, mostly because it entertains him for the amount of time it takes to load the dishwasher and mix milk for Emma's next feeding (still mixing formula with breastmilk). Plus, we then have the added bonus of even more fun activity time afterwords: WASHING THE WINDOW! YEA! Seriously. This child LOVES cleaning. weirdo :)
On a more serious note, I have a couple of prayers for today:
1) Emma's bottling is not going well. I think she's having some reflux and is starting to get a little fussy at the sensation of milk in her throat. This is potentially pretty bad as kids who get "oral aversions" or, as our ENT put it today, "forget how to eat" make this a battle that lasts YEARS. I'd really rather not have a feeding tube in a 4-year-old, so please pray that she turns this around sooner rather than later?
2) I am amazed and think it may be nothing short of a miracle that Emma is not sick. Obviously we're doing our best to keep Charlie's germs off Emma (his new skills at this juncture in his development are covering his mouth when he coughs and "rub rub rubbing" Purell hand sanitzer on his hands before he touches the baby), but Daddy and Charlie still have the crud hanging on. I actually worry about this on two levels: first, a cold could very easily become RSV for our little peanut with her tiny airways, which would mean back in the hospital she goes. But second, I love how much Charlie loves Emma and I don't want this stress to be complicating the adjustment to becoming a big brother. It's enough that Mommy can't always be at your beck and call anymore, but to WANT to be involved with the new baby and be told you have to stay away ... it's enough to break your heart. So I'm dancing a fine line here and praying for wisdom and strong immune systems!!
3) Speaking of RSV, Stellen over at MckMama's blog is back in the hospital. No, I don't know her in real life, but Stellen was born a few weeks before Emma and has a miraculously healed heart as well, so his story is close to my heart. I know, I admit it, I'm a blog-stalker ... but I suspect I have some stalkers as well out there (welcome, we love you and thank you for your prayers!), so click on the MckMiracle button and pray for the family if you have a chance?
Blessings to all!
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Penn of Penn and Teller has a video blog that he rants about different things on, none of which are terribly complimentary to the Christian faith. I believe he would describe himself as a preaching atheist. So this was a recent post:
not sure how to get the video on here, but check it out.
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Emma will of course awaken again before the night is over, Charlie we're not so sure. He's pretty miserably sick, and he fell asleep on the couch with Daddy about 45 minutes ago.
Charlie and Daddy are both feeling a little under the weather.
Emma is doing great, however. I added a new item to the list of things I love about baby #2; you realize that sleepy babies will often just fall asleep if placed in a crib when they are sleepy! No, seriously, I honestly didn't realize that I didn't have to rock Charlie to a sound sleep and then gingerly put him down hoping he wouldn't wake up until he was at least 8 months old. Not that I regret those hours of rocking, there's nothing like a sleeping babe in your arms, but it's nice to know with #2 that just putting a drowsy baby down and letting them fall asleep is an option!
Emma also had a bath yesterday. Having never had curly hair myself, I'm not really sure what to do with hers!
Here's what her hair looks like after a bath:
And two hours later it's sort of matted. Do I seriously need hair products for my infant? :) I have to admit that would be kind of fun :)
So sleep deprevation mode is totally setting in, but other than that and the illness we're doing ok. I'm praying for the Holy Spirit to give me and Josh patience with each other; I'll be totally honest and admit that we weren't so good in that department at this stage with Charlie - lack of sleep isn't lovely on anyone, especially the love of your life, amen? I know you've been there.
So that's what Christmas looks like at the Watczak household this evening. We were at my mom's yesterday for Christmas Eve gift giving and game playing and this weekend Josh's family is coming down, but for tonight, for the moment, anyway, I'm enjoying a Silent Night!
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Charlie's developed a cough ... please pray for no RSV for Emma!!!
Charlie LOVES his sister. We (against all medical advice with the exception of our family pediatrician who is a believer and knows Emma's story) went to church on Sunday and Charlie RAN to the nursery, saying "Come on, Emma!" We explained Emma was too little and he cried, saying "Emma come too?" He got over it quickly
Charlie LOVES holding his sister. "eat your green beans and I'll let you hold baby Emma"
Emma's little swing ran out of batteries yesterday and we didn't have replacements (because really, who has C batteries around the house?), but Charlie was convinced he could fix it for her. So he grabbed his screwdriver and went to work. All day, this was his greatest concern. He and Josh ran to Target to get some batteries last night and now the swing works. Charlie has been talking all day today about how HE "fixed da swing for baby Emma and now it works!"
Emma has a fussy period in the evenings, which is keeping Josh and I up way past our bedtime (it's his turn right now, so I'm posting :))
Emma did great bottling this afternoon, but we're still not even up to one full bottle a day. She took less than 10 mls and a full feeding is 50. It's a long road, but she's doing ok.
Charlie had his first "something has changed and I don't like it" meltdown the other day. He was eating breakfast at the kitchen table and I was changing Emma's diaper. I left my phone on the counter. The phone rang and I couldn't get to it. Charlie yelled (with increasing volume and panic) "Mommy? Mommy, your phone is ringing! Mommy! Oh, no! Mommy!" I, of course, was responding to every "mommy" with a calm "I'll be there in a minute" but for some reason the fact that I wasn't coming to answer my phone was cause for panic. I got back to the kitchen and there were tears streaming down his face. Seriously, child, I went to the bathroom and left things undone before Emma got here! But I understand that this is an adjustment for all of us. He's doing much better than I expected with everything we've been through in the past month. For the most part, he's his usual sweet and wonderful and WELL BEHAVED self ... for the most part :)
Emma has these great long periods of content alert awake time. She's looking around, making faces, tolerating her brother's affections, tracking toys that are held in front of her, and MAYBE smiling? I think she's smiling and that's all that matters, right? :)
And here's the hilarious ... picture this:
This was a couple of days ago so Josh was still home. Emma has two different prescribed antibiotic ointments that are in very similar-looking tubes, but one is for her G-tube site and the other is for a yeast infection she got in the hospital around her diaper area. So I was upstairs pumping and Charlie was "helping" Josh change Emma's diaper. Josh accidentally put the stuff that goes on Emma's tummy on Emma's bottom. No big deal, but he came running across the house with no diaper on Emma up to our bedroom to get the right ointment (picture him holding her out so as not to get peed on :)) Charlie came running after him. I'm upstairs pumping. Josh makes it up the stairs. Charlie runs into the wall. (or falls down the stairs, we're not really sure which) Of course, Charlie cries and says he needs someone to kiss his not-actually-injured-but-I-don't-know-that-at-this-point-head and make it better. So I abruptly stop pumping and run, still lactating, downstairs to my son. I ask, "Do you need kisses?" He replies, "No, I just bonked" and runs off to play with toys. I stand in the entrance to our bedroom with milk on my shirt and look at my husband (who, unfortunately in my mind, did NOT get peed on) and we laugh. Cuz what else can you do? :)
And I must say, we are getting spoiled by the meals we are recieving!! If you people are eating on a regular basis as well as you have provided to us every night this past week, how are you not all 300 pounds?? Bless you all. But how do you expect me to lose my baby weight with all this wonderful food??? :)
Merry Christmas! Christ's love and peace to all of you!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
He finally gets to hold her.
And as you can see by the picture, he's very proud and takes his responsibility very seriously
I can't tell you how much it warms my heart to see Charlie with Emma. He just loves on this little girl so much, I have to tell him, "Ok, no more kisses now until mommy's done changing her diaper."
I can't believe how much I am in love with these two kids.
But we'll see in 24 hours. :) tomorrow is my first full day at home with these two by myself. I am feeling right now like it's within the realm of manageable, but the big unknown is how independent is Charlie willing to be when it's just the 3 of us. Of course, I am not above counting on good ole Winnie the Pooh and/or Grover to help me out in that department, however :)
As one of Charlie's favorite books says ... I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.
Thursday, December 18, 2008
no, she's not smiling for real yet, but if you sit with her with a camera for long enough, you can get a really cute picture of her with gas! :)
and can you see the eyelashes? love it!
Charlie is so proud of "Baby Emma." I'll have to post a picture of him soon, but I'm a little embarrassed; he's got the biggest goose-egg ever on his forehead. He was so excited on our first day with his sister home that he was running around and ran into a wall!! Seriously
And everything he does these days is "for Emma"
"I turn on da light for Emma"
"I read a book for Emma"
"I eat my green beans for Emma"
ok, so maybe I made that last one up, but he did crawl onto the couch and "read" One Fish Two Fish Red Fish Blue Fish to Emma yesterday. It was pretty cute
Still trying to figure out how to care for these two monsters, and actually I'm a little in denial right now and therefore hiding in my blog because Josh left for work an hour ago!!! Yes, my mom is coming a little later, but for the moment, I'm alone in the house with two monkeys. What if they both wake up? :)
Love to all
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
I'm grateful that we have the tube to feed her, and I'm glad she's gaining weight, but we need to keep her from getting an aversion to oral feeding, and so far I'm a little worried. (what am I talking about "so far"? She did great on Sunday and these two days have been ... let's just say hectic.) My biggest concern actually is that she's not doing well because she's picking up my anxiety with this activity.
Thanks for all your support and prayers. I am absolutely convinced that the prayers of God's people DIRECTLY lead to Emma's healed heart, so I know bottling is small potatoes ... but it's frustrating nontheless
I have no idea how to do this! But that's ok, right? What parent brings home a baby (particularly #2) and sits back and thinks about how easy this is?
Our pediatrician visit went well. Emma had another echocardiogram right before she left the hospital, just to be sure ... still nothing wrong with her heart! (they heard a murmur and thought that we were finally going to see what we thought was there, but it's not from a hole, it's the result of an "abnormality that is within the range of normal" that we don't need to do anything about. Emma's heart is fine ... a little different from most people's, but fine ... just like her :))
Charlie is such a good big brother! Josh and I are running around like stressed out chickens with their heads cut off (are there chickens with no heads that AREN'T stressed?) and Charlie peeks into her bassinet and says "Hi, baby Emma!" and asks if he can hold her hand. Again, the calm in the center of the storm is the 2-year old?????? I love my Charlie.
And I love my Emma. She's so snuggly and little and cute. She gets so many comments wherever she goes, and that makes me feel good.
It's a roller coaster, though. I'm stressed about finding time to pump, and then I'm stressed about how much to mix with formula (extra calories for our little one) and how much to freeze and then I'm stressed about putting the right amount in the pump and .... it's tough.
Our God will give us strength. When I was in labor, my mantra during contractions was "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." Still true. I just need to remember it.
And maybe get some sleep, but we knew we weren't signing up for lots of that!! :)
Monday, December 15, 2008
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Charlie wanted to "hod it", but luckily was satisfied with holding her hand.
Emma got a little upset, so Charlie, being the good older brother, gave her her paci very gently.
So tomorrow life gets turned upside down again. I'm not sure when we're going to get to posting again, but we'll do our best. We really appreciate everyone's support, and especially those of you who have made it clear that the support is just starting. It's gonna be a long road (we've got a lot of calls to make tomorrow for Dr. appointments just for this week) but we'll make it with our great support network.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Does that make Christ the whale?
Pardon the lightening bolt headed my way ...
hee hee ... I'm trusting at least SOME of you out there know me well enough to find the humor in my irreverent moments of comparing Jesus to a big fish...
Ok, back to my wonderful children.
Emma took 13 mls from a bottle today!!! And she didn't spell or anything! Yea, Emma!
And a huge PRAISE report for those who have been praying. The insurance company WILL pay for the pump and supplies for Emma's feedings. What a relief!
We had CPR training and pump training today, so I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed by the stuff we need to know and have and do for our little girl, but we'll get through it. I don't think anyone planning to become second-time parent thinks "oh, let's just get pregnant. Remember how EASY babies are?" So Emma will be a lot of work in a different way than Charlie was a lot of work, but it will be ok.
The doctor seems to think Wednesday is a pretty reasonable day to think about taking Emma home, but it ain't over until ... well, you know.
We're praying that she'll come home at the RIGHT time. Can't rush these things, I understand, but we're so excited to just get her here!!
Doing well on the feeding schedule, too. Yesterday during one of her first ones she showed signs of discomfort, but nothing like before. And really, that's part of the point, here. You know after you eat thanksgiving dinner and you swear your stomach will never be the same size again? That's how my Emma feels right now because we're stretching her stomach. She's just had a continuous slow drip until now.
So yesterday I was holding her after one of her feedings and she refluxed a little. I switched her over to her stomach in my hand and rubbed her back and watched her color. Her heart rate did drop a bit, but my nurse said she was really proud of me that I caught the event before the monitors did. Emma bounced right back and did fine without even needing to be vented (burped). I felt SO victorious! Like, yes, I CAN take this baby home without a monitor!
And I'm trying not to reflect on what "victorious" looks like these days. I'm trying to push "should" and "supposed to" out of my mind. Taking 5 ml of a bottle is victorious for Emma, and I need to practice this perspective for the rest of my life, I think. She will always be a little different, and I think I've finally (by God's grace and nothing else, mind you) arrived at a mental place where I can see "victorious for Emma" and truly "victorious" and not be sad about what life was "supposed to" look like. And that's a happy thing for me.
Anyway, back at home...
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
i love insurance companies
please pray that we won't end up paying the $1000 a month out of pocket! we don't have it :)
But then they did a test that bypassed her ear canal and she can hear just fine.
Which means we get tubes put in her ears and she can hear just fine.
We also started the "bolus" feedings today, but it's going to be very gradual, getting her stomach to expand and get empty and having her be ok with it. Please pray that this goes smoothly. This is the last thing that could keep us in the hospital!
We are told that we can go home as soon as Saturday, provided everything goes well between now and then.
How are we feeling about this, you ask?
We are rejoicing! Like I said, it just takes a minute sometimes to come to terms with the situation, and there will be more bumps and more dips in the roller coaster, but today is good and we're so excited to get her home!!
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
She's got sort of a "I know something you don't know" thing going on here, don't you think? :)
And meanwhile, back at the ranch ...
Charlie is doing well. Again, I'm so enjoying my mornings with him. This morning we were playing with his Lego table (picture a coffee table that has a lego surface and a hole in the middle where a bucket of Legos goes).
He loves going downstairs to play "Legoblocks" and this morning when he dropped a peice on the floor, we started playing peek-a-boo through the hole in the middle of the table.
I swear, looking at me and Josh, you wouldn't think we'd have such cute kids! :)
Here's one more of Emma (I was going to post more, but I really should go to bed :)) after she passed her carseat test.I think she looks quite proud of herself.
Monday, December 8, 2008
My friend Stephanie offerred to watch Charlie this morning while I went to see Emma, and when I got back to pick him up, he and his little friend Bete were singing "This is the day that the Lord has made." He sang it the whole way home. You all know that I love it when Charlie learns a new song but today it tore my heart in two.
Emma had a rough morning. Actually, she had a pretty rough morning and Mommy had a VERY rough morning.
The OT met me for bottle feeding at about 10:30. I should have pumped when I got to the hospital at 10, but she was all awake and cute and making silly faces with Mommy, so I just couldn't leave.
So at 10:30 the OT was holding Emma and trying another bottle. This time we were going to try 10 mls and she'd had her pumps off for about 30 mins, so she was actually hungry. This bottling started off well and she took the first 5 mls no problem.
Then I'm not really clear what happened. She turned funny colors and all her alarms went off. The OT told the nurse Emma was "having a spell," which means her heart rate goes way down and she sort of stops breathing and the nurse or OT or whoever sits there and with INFURIATING calm (just kidding, I was glad they were so calm, nobody screamed for a crash cart or anything) she flipped her over and patted her back and told her to breathe.
It seemed like forever until Emma woke back up (not sure if she was unconscious or just eyes closed or what, but it scared me) and then she sort of dry-heaved for awhile. And then she lay limp as a rag doll in the OT's hand looking pale and exhausted.
Seriously, the whole event took maybe 30 seconds and I've been assured that we will get used to how to deal with these, that it happens sometimes when she's learning to eat, but tell me that wouldn't freak you out!!!
This is the day that the Lord has made.
After a few minutes Emma still wasn't taking super deep breaths and so the nurse suggested she spend some time on Mom's chest. So we snuggled for about 5 minutes and Emma started to move her head again to look around and her color came back.
And then I looked at the clock and realized it was 11:15, that I was supposed to pick up my son at 12 and he was 30 minutes away and I hadn't pumped since 6:30 that morning!!
This is the day that the Lord has made.
I waited 5 more minutes to convince myself that Emma was really ok. (by this time the OT had left saying, "Ok, great, we'll try again tomorrow?" and "she really is coming along nicely, we got 6 mls in!") Then I asked the nurse to hold her (even though Emma was sound asleep and probably could have just gone down in her crib) and I went to pump.
And cry for awhile.
Let me just make sure to add that Stephanie was super gracious and even though she had kids to get to preschool at 12:15 she offerred to keep Charlie for the afternoon, but I was already feeling badly for waking him up and his naptime was approaching and the nurse suggested that Emma really needed her rest in her crib. I've never felt more torn and depressed in all my life. i kissed Emma and cried and the nurse told me she was fine and i left.
And then I walked into Stephanie's house determined not to cry in front of Charlie and he and Bete are singing "this is the day that the Lord has made."
And with toddlers, (or at least my Charlie) mommies are stuck singing along with songs for quite some time when little guys get them stuck in their heads.
I didn't really understand the term "sacrifice of praise" until this afternoon as Charlie and I were singing the call and response "let us rejoice and be glad in it"
We had McDonald's for lunch.
Now here's where I need prayer. As I was cleaning up lunch, I got the phone call I've been waiting for for almost 4 weeks.
"Hi, this is Dr. P. I just checked Emma out and she's looking great. She's going to be off the Jtube feedings by tomorrow and then we're kind of at the point where there's nothing that we're doing for her here in the hospital that you can't do for her at home, so I wanted to talk to you about a plan for that."
this is the day that the Lord has made
Am I appropriately conveying my emotions? I'm not really sure what to type next, here, but I'm crying and I don't know if I'm sad or just overwhelmed or scared or happy or all of the above.
So Josh is at the hospital now and hopefully nailing down some details. We still have a car seat test we need to do (they put Emma in her car seat for like an hour or something and leave her monitors on to check and make sure she's ok sitting like that for the ride home), we need to meet with some cleft palate people to make sure we understand what we're dealing with there and her brain/hearing test is scheduled for Wednesday, so we're looking at maybe the end of the week.
Collecting myself, praying for strength.
This is the day that the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice and be glad in it.
just give me a minute :)
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Emma took a bottle today!! I was, unfortunately, not there to see it (stupid church - JUST KIDDING ... hey, was anyone praying during that time for Emma's feeding???), but her daytime nurse was doing Emma's oral motor skills program and noticed that Emma's sucking had gotten a lot stronger. So she filled up a bottle with 5 ml (yup, 5 ML, not 5 ounces, so we're talking a medicine dropper amount of milk, here) and Emma sucked and swallowed and breathed and got the whole thing down! The nurse said she thought Emma might have taken more but that the doc hadn't ordered oral feeding yet (there's a difference between that and being allowed to practice with small amounts, apparently).
(side note - has anyone else noticed that I use paranthesis entirely too often??)
(and let's play "count the typos" in this post ... again, why am I not sleeping?)
So I'm super excited! I keep reminding myself that this is going to be a learned skill for our little girl instead of it just coming naturally, so this doesn't mean that she's ready to just bottle all the time and go home tomorrow or anything. But it's a big step!
LOVED Pastor Dave's comment today - think God's powerful enough to handle this?
Saturday, December 6, 2008
Friday, December 5, 2008
So Charlie was re-counting his adventures at his friend Eli's house to me this morning and he mentioned that they had to take turns with Eli's guitar. Now, let me back up for a minute ... Eli's guitar is quite possibly the most annoying toy ever invented! (with the exception perhaps of the spider/ladybug that sings "sort, sort, sort my shapes, circles hearts and squares!" to the tune of Row Your Boat, but I digress) This guitar has buttons all the way up the neck and plays (or PLAYED until the batteries became irreplacably "broken") very loud electronic sounding ... ummm ... music (for lack of a better word).
But for some reason this guitar is a point of contention between the two friends and Moms always have to enforce turn taking whenever the awful thing makes it's appearance.
So today Charlie was talking about this and he sort of paused, thought for a minute and came up with a great plan:
C: "I wanna have a guitar at Charlie's house."
Me: "But we don't have one of those guitars."
C: "I wanna guitar at Charlie's house."
Me: "That guitar lives at Eli's house"
C: "We go to da store and buy a guitar for Charlie's house?"
WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?! When has THAT ever been an option or solution to ANYTHING in my house?!?!?!?! He doesn't watch commercials ... where did consumerism pop into my sweet little angel's head???
But then a wonderful idea occurred to me: he doesn't know the difference yet between Eli's and cardboard. I mean, he has a "lightsaber" at Nana's house that was made from an old tube of wrapping paper and stickers from those free return address labels we all get this time of year, so why not a guitar from an old cardboard box?
So we got our scissors and crayons and I must say he's thrilled with the result:
Sometimes I get self-conscious about the fact that all my videos of Charlie singing, etc, are Christian songs. I'm not trying to put an over-spiritual front out there and it's not like we have daily praise and worship time at my house, it's just that I'm overly influenced by secular music, so it's all we have on in the house and Charlie picks up on things frighteningly quickly.
That being said, however, I will be a proud geeky Mama and post the latest Bible verse that Charlie has memorized. (secretly he just likes to read my Bible because it has fun-feeling pages and so we read Ps 23, but I like that he learns stuff like this so well ... maybe in my next life I'll start being more intentional about all this, but for now please believe me that I'm not nearly as cool as I may look on my blog)
And tonight's Emma update: she failed her hearing test last night, but that doesn't mean she absolutely can't hear. It just means we need a more sophisticated test (with brain-activity sensors and such) to tell what she can hear and what she can't. There are still possible solutions like ear tubes and surgery and such if we find that there are things she can't hear.
And her weight is now 4 lbs 13.8 oz. Go, Emma, go!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
Also, she's having her hearing checked tonight. Last night they tried to check it but there was too much noise in the room, so we're trying tonight. If she doesn't pass this one they have to sedate her to run a more sophisticated test. No fun. Please pray she can hear...
But on a lighter note, Charlie is still bouying our spirits.
Hands down, his favorite song right now is Mighty to Save. I know for the rest of my life that song will have very special meaning. I framed the verse from Zephaniah 3:17 and put it by Emma's bedside to remind myself everyday that God is mighty to save and rejoices over us.
But Charlie doesn't really know that at this point, he just likes the song :)
And he also likes the snowman that sings "let it snow," so clearly the two should be combined.
And the hat was his idea, not mine. Not that I'm opposed to the holiday spirit.
I am so thankful that I can still have my mornings with Charlie.
This morning had the most beautiful snow outside so we tried for a artful pic of Charlie watching big white fluffy flakes ... I'm not good at photography.
Oh, well. Have a great night, everyone!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Hmmmm. So you're my daddy, huh? Well, ok, if you insist, but there are going to have to be some changes in the "play time" activity list!
Rest up, little girl, you've got a big day ahead of you!
Don't you just love the frogs?
Monday, December 1, 2008
Emma's hearing and vision are being tested this week. I know that's routine and not worrysome for most new parents, but if you look at syndromes indicated by everything Emma's had going on so far, hearing loss and vision problems typically fit right in. (still no word on genetic testing, but doctors are assuming certain syndromes are likely so that they can know what to look for for the sake of early intervention. I guess that's good... depressing, but good.)
Please pray that she will pass her tests?
Charlie was asking about our manger scene.
I realized yesterday as we were out and about and he was pointing out "Kiss-mess tees" that I hadn't really explained Christmas to Charlie yet. He wasn't really old enough last year, and I'd given short answers like "Christmas is Jesus' birthday," but we hadn't sat down to talk about it yet.
So I told Charlie the story of Jesus' birth this morning.
And while I was in the shower after this breakfast time chat, I was pondering how much of the story would sink in.
I mean, when Charlie got old enough that we started praying with him, I worried about what exactly we were going to tell him about this "God" fellow. The thing is, I wasn't sure what to tell Charlie about why we love Jesus. I would think about why I love Jesus and all He's saved me from, but it didn't seem appropriate to tell one's 18month old son, "You see, when Mommy was in college, she made some bad choices ..."
So why do we love Jesus? You know, the two year old version ... hmmmmm.
At the time, we just sort of plowed ahead and prayed and thanked Jesus for everything He had given us that day and prayed for help or healing or whatever seemed appropriate at the time. Lately, of course, we've been thanking God for family and friends a lot and of course every night praying for baby Emma to come home soon. But it's not like you sit down and present the gospel to your toddler. You just sort of hope they catch on?? That doesn't seem right, either, though.
So the thought that popped into my head today was this acronym I learned once when I was younger about God: TULIP. I'm sure many of you have heard of it and probably remember better than I do what all the letters stand for (is U unconditional love?), but I was remembering that the letter 'I' stood for 'irresistable.' As in, God in all his facets and the Holy Spirit working in someone's heart is simply irresistable.
(side note: I'm pretty sure P stands for something having to do with predestination, so I don't want to open up a big can of worms theological debate, here, particularly as I am making a point about my TODDLER. Calm down, Hammonds:) just go with me on this)
So on we go with Charlie, talking about how we can't go and see Emma but we can pray for God to make her better, and having Charlie singing songs about our God is an awesome God and so on. And I have no idea if I'm doing ANY of this right.
But despite my best efforts, I think my son loves the Lord, in his way. And I'm so proud.
Charlie loves to pray. I haven't had to explain to him that God hears him even though He's invisible and all that, he just simply loves to pray. God moves in our hearts and His presence is irresistable, regardless of our factual knowledge. (again, calm down, theologians, talking about the faith of a 22 MONTH OLD, here)
But I think about "am I explaining this right?" and "what exactly are the key points he NEEDS to know about Christmas?" and then I remember one of our Thanksgiving meals (we have several):
One of our family members prayed a very general beautiful prayer thanking God for the many blessings he's poured out on our family this year and we said "in Jesus' name, amen" and started to eat.
But Charlie's hands were still folded.
"Pray again!" he said adamantly.
"what should we pray for, buddy?"
Dear Jesus, please don't ever let me forget to lay all my trials at your feet. Thank you that you work in our hearts to remind us of your presence always. Thank you for my children and please continue to heal Emma and keep her safe. Amen